April 10, 2016

Spring Cleaning

Hello, my loves! How are you all today?! Before you click off of this post, don't worry: it's not actually about cleaning. Today's post is all about fresh starts, happiness, self worth, and the cleaning out of your mind, spirit, and all that other junk!

A couple of days ago I felt an unusual burst of happiness. I don't know if it's because of the change in season or because I've reached the peak of a metaphorical mountain on my trek of life, but I'm feeling good! I believe the biggest contributor towards my newfound happiness has been the absence of clutter in my life - both figurative and literal. To achieve this mental clarity, I cleaned out my room, my car, and I completely refreshed my social media. Weird combination, right? My goal was to clear out all of the places where I spend most of my time.

Everyone knows that physically being in a clean, organized environment can make you feel better, but what I was extremely surprised about were the positive affects that clearing out my social media accounts had on my wellbeing. Seeing as it's the 21st century, most people essentially live and breathe the Internet. I - unfortunately, at times - am one of those people. Between blogging, YouTubing, and documenting my life through Instagram posts and funny Facebook statuses, I'm on the Internet quite a lot. With said documentation of my life comes a lot of documented memories; some of which could be quite toxic.


About 6 months ago, I decided to leave my group of friends that I had spent the past 2 years of my life trying to fit in with. Throughout my friendship with these people, I felt like I was constantly being judged for not being as smart or as 'nice' as them, and for being straightforward and honest about things, and for not reading any of the Harry Potter books. I was always being excluded from their gatherings, and I didn't feel like I deserved to be treated like that. After this cutoff not only did I have no friends, but I had also broken up with my ex-boyfriend a couple months later. (He would've rather been liked by my old group of friends than be with me, even after he knew how crappily they treated me and how they made me feel.) Oh well, I couldn't be happier now with the choices I've made!

Anyway, me being the photographer I am, had social media accounts that were literally LITTERED with pictures of these people. I decided to keep these pictures at first of some ungodly reason, but the more they sat, the more they bugged me. Every time I went online I'd see something that would completely bring me down. The pictures and statuses that once held great memories now only had negative connotations. Referring back to my Mansion Theory post from last March, I concluded that these people honestly weren't worthy of being a part of my life. So why promote them on my social media?

When I realized this, my life turned around. I started getting rid of contacts on my phone, deleting junky pictures on my Instagram (@jordanndaniielle), unfriending people that I'm not friends with in real life, deleting sentimental conversations with people who no longer have a place in my heart, etc. It immediately felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. It's been great for me and my phone storage! I deleted over 150 pictures on Instagram. My brain was no longer trapped under a grey cloud of bad memories and heartbreak. I know it sounds crazy, but getting rid of those conversations, pictures, and the negative feelings that came along with them made all the difference. I can now move on with my life without being held back by anything.

The purpose of this post is not simply to tell you how happy I am, but to tell you how you can be happy too. Clear out! Get all of the crap out of your life. Get rid of anything and anyone that is making you unhappy. Life is too short to waste it with crappy people in a crappy place doing crappy things.

I can't tell you how much lighter and happier I feel. Getting rid of all negativity and being in control of my life and emotions is one of the best feelings in the world. I'd highly recommend it!

Until next time, my lovely friends!
Jordan x